So, I have been getting a bit more daring.  After buying the Estee Lauder makeup, I have been trying to maintain a skin care regimen.  So I exfoliate, clarify and moisturize every morning now.  I try to remember to do it at night but I am not so good at that yet.  In any case, I started wearing a light coat of mascara every day.  I am very careful to use a clean brush and separate my lashes so that the clumps are gone and it is not obvious.  Yesterday I took it up a level and wore shadow too.  My eye creases are dark naturally so I just evened them out and added some light shadow over the rest of my eyelids.  I felt so pretty.  I stopped by Estee Lauder at lunch to see if Marcie was there but she wasn't.  The other girls were busy so I left.  I should mention that I put on the Stay Honey lipstick before going into the mall.  I can not tell how noticable the lipstick is.  I am hoping on the one hand that it is subtle but on another level, I am announcing that I am a sissy.  In any case, I returned to the mall after work to see if Marcie might have just been at lunch.  She was still not there.  The other girls were not occupied and were chatting at the Clinique counter.  I stayed by the EL counter until one of them finally came over...the first person to really see me with makeup on.  She was very nice also and I told her that I was looking for an eye pencil to go with the Stay Honey lipstick.  She put a little lipstick on her hand and the tried two pencils.  She made a recommendation, which I agreed with and I purchased it.  She gave me some samples as I checked out and she made it clear that she knew that I would be the one using it.  How girly of me. 

Then, as I checked out, I realized that my debit card was missing.  After a quick review, I realized that it was probably at On Tap, where Brenda and I had gone the night before.  So, I decided to stop there on the way home and check.  The questions was, should I go in with the lipstick on?  All of the way over I though about the question.  I knew that being a bar it the lighting would be low.  And I knew that most of the bartenders were women.  So, I talked myself into it.  So, I parked and walked in without encountering anyone.  There was a woman at the bar but she was talking to a guy.  So, I walked over an she asked if she could help me.  In all the way now.  I told her what had happened and she said that she had seen the card, or so she thought.   She walked to another part of the bar, where there were a group of men talking and she searched for it, maybe in a drawer.  She then asked for an ID and I gaver her my driver's license.  All the time I am wondering if anyone has noticed my makeup.  She hands me back my license and card and I thank her.  No visible recognition of my makeup.  Did she see or not?  What did she think if she did?  Did the guys see?  I don't know.  But I seemingly turned a corner and am not embarassed to be seen as a sissy.  Sweet! 

I should mention that I was cold at work and came home and put on a turtleneck to stay warmer.  A ladies turtle neck.  Black, with a high neck and cable knit.  Not obviously a woman's bouse and yet a little fem.  So, I wore that under my wool shirt all afternoon.  But I took the shirt off to go into the mall and into the bar.  I did not have a slacks or shoes to wear so it was probably not noticable but I stilll enjoyed it. 

I have decided that the next thing to do is to try on shoes.  I am hoping to find a store with a young female clerk and otherwise empty.  This is the first time, after all.  I plan on wearing the little not to fem booties with panty hose.  Probably the grey slacks.  Maybe with the maroon knit shell and my jacket.  We'll see.