A New Year!

So, I started off the new year with a nice chat with Kirstie at Nite Flirt. We chatted a long time about me losing my virginity.  So, I am once again seriously pondering the idea.  I also tried something new.  One of the things that would be cool is being bent over and fucked, panties down at my ankles and dress over my head.  When he's done, pulling up my panties and putting my dress down.  And then feel the cum oozing from my hole.  So, today, after I came, I put the cum in my ass and I am sitting here waiting for it to leak out, into my panties.  I am not sure how long it will take but I will let you know how it goes.

Next Step

So, I have not completed my goal yet.  But I am getting there.  I chatted on-line last night and received a good suggestion.  I told her that I was thinking about losing my virginity, and the whole wedding dress thing and she said I had the cart before the horse.  That I needed to learn how to relate to men, as a woman, before jumping off into sex.  She may be right, but where do I find a guy to flirt with and go to dinner with, flirt with, dance with, kiss?

I am mulling this idea over in my head....not sure what to do.  Feel free to advise me!

A girly day.

So, I had a girly day today. I started with black bikini panties from VS.  Just a plain cotton but still, a good start.  I then used my cleanser, astringent and moisturizer.  Feeling sexy today, I applied a light coat of my BB cream.  And the strobe cream, by MAC, to give me a dewy look.  A little mascara and lip base and I was off to work!

Sitting there I felt like I needed to go shopping.  So, at lunch I went to the mall to see if my favorite cosmetics-counter girl was in.  She was, but she was tied up.  So, I killed some time at VS.  I bought three soft and silky panties, white, black and pink.  All with lace trim.  Mmm.  I was disappointed when the check out lady said that "she'd like these, they're so soft".  I know, I should have corrected her right off.  Damn.  Now I have to go back.  Hehe.  So, I headed back to the department store and she was not busy.  She remembered me and we had a great chat about the new line she is representing.  And she invited me to come back to an event they are having next week..."we'll play a little"....I can't wait!

So, then my dance supply store called.  My new ballet pants arrived.  These are much more form fitting, almost like a footless tight but not quite as skin-tight.  So, I picked those up.  And finally, I stopped by the post office and my Jockey "Fit-kit" arrived!  So when I got home, I tried out the different plastic cups and measured myself.  I am a 1-40 under this system.  Now, to order a new bra!!

Leotard

So, I went to the Capezio store in Wayne, NJ.  It was near closing time so I did not have time to browse.  I really want to get back there when time is not so critical!  It is just full of good things and I so want to try some of them on!  In any case, I walked in and a nice young lady asked if she could help me.  I said that I needed to get a leotard, extra large.  She asked about sleeve style and I asked for a short sleeve one.  She showed me two racks, one with a nylon/spandex mix and the other with a cotton/spandex mix.  I asked about the difference and she talked about wear and fading.  I figured that cotton would be cooler than a 100 % synthetic so I went with the cotton.  Unfortunately that limited me to black or white. I chose black.  She then looked at me like "what next?".  I said I didn't really know what I was doing, hoping that she'd suggest trying it on.  But she didn't.  So, we went to the counter and I paid for it.  Leotards are pretty inexpensive.  I may need one in every color, hehe.  So, I drove off and started changing into it, finally getting it on.  It is a little tight but I hope that all this extra exercise and a better diet will drop a few pounds.  We'll see.  In any case, I wore the leotard all the way to my hotel and threw on a jacket (from the suit) and checked in.  The clerk kept giving me funny looks, like she knew what I was wearing under my jacket.  Hehe.  I am such a sissy!

 

 

So, there I am.  I'll get better, I promise!

More Ballet

I have now been to three classes.  I am starting to get addicted.  I am still way behind most of the ladies in the class but each time I get a little more of the routine.  We run though the same barre exercises each week and I am starting to be able to do some of the moves without watching the lady in front of me.  This allows me to have better posture, especially with my head, as I am not dropping my head to watch.  I have also started to watch videos of ballet moves to get a better sense of what I should be doing.  I think this will really help.  I am still wearing my black dance pants and a tshirt.  I have considered buying a pair of capri pants as the dance pants have a loose lower leg.  This may be a little too girly for this point in the game but we'll see.  The ultimate goal, of course, is to wear a leotard and tights....need to lose some weight first though. 

Ballet Class

Ok.  I had my first ballet class today.  Plié.  Demi-plié.  It was at least as difficult as I expected.  the instructor is a guy but the remainder of the class are women, ranging in age from 20ish to 60ish.  They seemed very accepting and supporting.  So, wow.  The movement is so girly I can not begin to describe how it makes me feel.  But I am expected to do everything and do it with a self confidence and poise that I do not have.  Yet.  That is the point though, isn't it?  At the very least I will be better balanced and more graceful.  With any luck some of that will carry over into my non-ballet life in a way that presents itself as gracefully feminine.  The trick is carrying myself with that same poise and style as I go about my life.  It will be interesting to see if anyone notices.  Hehe.

Ballet Shoes

I bought ballet shoes today.  Black.  Ok, I should have bought pink but I am not totally out, right?  In any case, I need to figure out what else to wear.  I think I should not start out with a pink leotard and white tights, though that is what I'd like.  Probably will end up with black yoga pants.  Oh well...the entire experience will be pretty girly.  I'll let you know when I figure it out.  Saturday morning is the first class.   Giggle.

Wednesday 7/17...Bought a pair of black dance pants today.  And a dance belt.  I'd rather need a dance bra...oh well.