A girly day.

So, I had a girly day today. I started with black bikini panties from VS.  Just a plain cotton but still, a good start.  I then used my cleanser, astringent and moisturizer.  Feeling sexy today, I applied a light coat of my BB cream.  And the strobe cream, by MAC, to give me a dewy look.  A little mascara and lip base and I was off to work!

Sitting there I felt like I needed to go shopping.  So, at lunch I went to the mall to see if my favorite cosmetics-counter girl was in.  She was, but she was tied up.  So, I killed some time at VS.  I bought three soft and silky panties, white, black and pink.  All with lace trim.  Mmm.  I was disappointed when the check out lady said that "she'd like these, they're so soft".  I know, I should have corrected her right off.  Damn.  Now I have to go back.  Hehe.  So, I headed back to the department store and she was not busy.  She remembered me and we had a great chat about the new line she is representing.  And she invited me to come back to an event they are having next week..."we'll play a little"....I can't wait!

So, then my dance supply store called.  My new ballet pants arrived.  These are much more form fitting, almost like a footless tight but not quite as skin-tight.  So, I picked those up.  And finally, I stopped by the post office and my Jockey "Fit-kit" arrived!  So when I got home, I tried out the different plastic cups and measured myself.  I am a 1-40 under this system.  Now, to order a new bra!!

Leotard

So, I went to the Capezio store in Wayne, NJ.  It was near closing time so I did not have time to browse.  I really want to get back there when time is not so critical!  It is just full of good things and I so want to try some of them on!  In any case, I walked in and a nice young lady asked if she could help me.  I said that I needed to get a leotard, extra large.  She asked about sleeve style and I asked for a short sleeve one.  She showed me two racks, one with a nylon/spandex mix and the other with a cotton/spandex mix.  I asked about the difference and she talked about wear and fading.  I figured that cotton would be cooler than a 100 % synthetic so I went with the cotton.  Unfortunately that limited me to black or white. I chose black.  She then looked at me like "what next?".  I said I didn't really know what I was doing, hoping that she'd suggest trying it on.  But she didn't.  So, we went to the counter and I paid for it.  Leotards are pretty inexpensive.  I may need one in every color, hehe.  So, I drove off and started changing into it, finally getting it on.  It is a little tight but I hope that all this extra exercise and a better diet will drop a few pounds.  We'll see.  In any case, I wore the leotard all the way to my hotel and threw on a jacket (from the suit) and checked in.  The clerk kept giving me funny looks, like she knew what I was wearing under my jacket.  Hehe.  I am such a sissy!

 

 

So, there I am.  I'll get better, I promise!

More Ballet

I have now been to three classes.  I am starting to get addicted.  I am still way behind most of the ladies in the class but each time I get a little more of the routine.  We run though the same barre exercises each week and I am starting to be able to do some of the moves without watching the lady in front of me.  This allows me to have better posture, especially with my head, as I am not dropping my head to watch.  I have also started to watch videos of ballet moves to get a better sense of what I should be doing.  I think this will really help.  I am still wearing my black dance pants and a tshirt.  I have considered buying a pair of capri pants as the dance pants have a loose lower leg.  This may be a little too girly for this point in the game but we'll see.  The ultimate goal, of course, is to wear a leotard and tights....need to lose some weight first though. 

Ballet Class

Ok.  I had my first ballet class today.  Plié.  Demi-plié.  It was at least as difficult as I expected.  the instructor is a guy but the remainder of the class are women, ranging in age from 20ish to 60ish.  They seemed very accepting and supporting.  So, wow.  The movement is so girly I can not begin to describe how it makes me feel.  But I am expected to do everything and do it with a self confidence and poise that I do not have.  Yet.  That is the point though, isn't it?  At the very least I will be better balanced and more graceful.  With any luck some of that will carry over into my non-ballet life in a way that presents itself as gracefully feminine.  The trick is carrying myself with that same poise and style as I go about my life.  It will be interesting to see if anyone notices.  Hehe.

Ballet Shoes

I bought ballet shoes today.  Black.  Ok, I should have bought pink but I am not totally out, right?  In any case, I need to figure out what else to wear.  I think I should not start out with a pink leotard and white tights, though that is what I'd like.  Probably will end up with black yoga pants.  Oh well...the entire experience will be pretty girly.  I'll let you know when I figure it out.  Saturday morning is the first class.   Giggle.

Wednesday 7/17...Bought a pair of black dance pants today.  And a dance belt.  I'd rather need a dance bra...oh well. 

Dinner out

I should probably tell you about dinner on Friday night too.  So, I had my nails done on Friday afternoon.  As usual, she asked me if I wanted a clear coat.  As the family is away for the weekend, I figured that this would be a good time to have a little color for a couple of days.  No hiding that!  So, I told her that I'd be daring and try some color.  There is not likely any doubt in her mind about my sissyness.  So, we chose a light pink polish and she applied a clear coat and the pink.  She then asked whether I'd like it sheer, as is, or go with a second coat, showing me the difference with her nails.  I opted for the second coat.  She applied that and a final clear coat and the drying drops.  We then did the haircut.  As I was checking out the receptionist noticed that two nails were messed up...not hard dry yet...probably from reaching into my back pocket for my wallet (maybe a good reason to use the purse more often?  Food for thought.)  In any case, she had my nails repaired and I was on my way.  These trials and tribulations give me a better appreciation for what women put up with for beauty. 

So, I decided to go out for dinner.  I went home to walk the dogs first and to decide on an outfit for dinner.  I settled on the black suit, with pants.  Oh how I'd have liked to wear the skirt and heels but, small steps.  In any case, I wore the white short sleeved knit top and a cami.  I put on my silver necklace too, under the blouse.   The necklace could just be seen at the sides of my neckline.  I chose an Irish pub and drove there, when I realized that I needed ink for the printer.  Oh well, as long as I am in the neighborhood.  So I stopped at Staples for the ink.   Only the lady at the checkout saw me and she did not say anything or otherwise react.  On to the restaurant!  I had to park about 100 yards from the entrance and walk across the green.  I did not run into anyone so, no reactions.  I entered the restaurant and it was mostly empty...early for the dinner crowd.  The hostess seated me but with a little bit of a question in her eyes...now I am out!  There were televisions to watch so I did not have to sit there dwelling on my predicament.  The waitress was very polite and it all went smoothly, as it should, but I know the wait staff was talking about me.  I decided to take it farther and move the necklace outside the blouse.  Now there could be no doubt...no guy wears a crew neck knit with a thin silver necklace sitting on the outside.  So, there it was...right out there on the table.  And I survived. 

Ballet

Totally inspired this morning, I made an inquiry at a ballet school.  They have beginner classes for adults on a drop-in basis.  Since I would not be coming in at "the beginning", I figure that it would be even more uncomfortable, as the remainder of the class would be more advanced.  So, I asked about having some private lessons, to bring me up to speed.  I am waiting anxiously waiting to hear back.  I started looking into ballet clothing.  Do I dare buy the pink ballet shoes?  Tights and a leotard or pants and a shirt?  If pants, tight, ankle length?  So many questions.

I told the studio that I was looking to work on my balance and movement for my actual sport.  I am not sure about whether I should slowly work towards letting them know it is really being about acquiring a feminine deportment and state of mind.  We'll play that by ear.  In general, I think that any activity that is clearly this feminine will help with my overall adjustment.