The Dress

The dress arrived at Davids.  I was very surprised to get the email announcement as I expected to not see it until the fitting in July.  I put off picking it up until I could find a place to store it...home seems like a tough place and it being found could be complicated.  In any case, they sent a second notice today so I felt inclined to go get it.  With typical trepidation I approached the entrance.  But, I persevered and opened the door.  Not too many people.  Good.  I told the receptionist that I was there to pick up a dress.  She asked what name it was under.  Oh well, they know...

So, an assistant arrives out front carrying the dress.  And she asks if I want to try it on...did not think of this.  So, I replied, "sure, why not".  Casual me.  So, we go back to the changing rooms...nobody there.  She takes the dress out and gives it to me.  "Would you like a bra?"  Had not thought of that.  So, "sure, .why not".  I tried it on, after fighting to get the 40B long line bra on, and it fit wonderfully.  I am not sure what alterations will be recommended but it fit very nicely, as is.  But, do I check it out in the mirror or not?  Well, there is a bridesmaid next door, talking to the assistant...maybe not.  I changed back out of the dress and came out.  She then mentioned how much fun the other assistants had when I bought the dress...wow, I am a celebrity sissy.  Then we walked out front to sign for the dress.  The whole shop was there, I think.  Everyone had to know what dress it was.  I apparently have good taste, as they all approved. 

I can't wait for the fitting...

Makeup

So much has happened since my last update.  First, my dress arrived.  I did not expect to pick it up until the fitting in July but it has come, and I must pick it up.  I have to find a place to put it.  I am thinking about a very small storage facility.  That will get me to the fitting.  After that, I have to decide whether to keep it or donate/sell it.  Decisions!

Second, I bought a nice cocktail ring and a necklace.  They were shipped to Zales and arrived this week.  More about that later...

Finally, I had my makeup lesson yesterday.  Again, I was terrified going in but the ladies at the salon were perfect.  I am amazed that none of them has questioned my motivation or acted like I am out of my mind.  Oh well, I loved it.  She ran through the makeup that I brought suggested a slightly darker foundation for the summer, eyeliner, powder and a lipstick pencil.  Otherwise she was happy with my collection.  She picked up on my wanting a subtle look and showed me how to do it.  It was not as subtle as I have done but it more or less showed me that I am on the right track.  Practice, practice, practice.  She did one half of my face and I did the other.  I was so nervous that my half did not come out as well as I normally can do but it worked.  I learned a few tricks and ended with a nice makeup job.  She got out some makeup remover at the end of the session but I said that I'd leave that way.  Brave.  So, I checked out and the girl at the counter saw me, fully made up.  No comments.  I was so tempted to ask her how we had done but I didn't.  But, I drove to the mall with it still on, walked in to Zales and picked up the jewelry.  The ladies there said nothing while I did the paper work and then Jessa came in and asked if I had done the credit paperwork for the pearls.  I finished the other paperwork and then she took over and reversed the charges on the pearls.  She was her normal bubbly self and did not comment on the makeup.  Wow.  I am getting used to this status of people knowing that I am a sissy. 

I ran down to Macys to pick up my suit on Friday.  The suit came out beautifully.  I put it on and strolled around the mall for a bit.  I wore the white knit top that I bought with it.  I still need to get the right pair of flats to wear with it though.  The heels are too obvious and the flats that I have are not right.  Then, I tried on dresses.  Carolina met me at the "Macys by Appointment" office.  She took care of some other business and then asked about exactly what kind of dress I needed.  I told her that it was for a 3 o'clock wedding.  She went out to get some for me to try on.  She had exactly the right idea for me.  Most of the dresses had a top cover-up.  So, I tried on the first dress and it was way too tight...it was a very fitted size 10.  Then I tried on a lovely blue dress, size 16, and it fit well but Carolina did not like how it looked.  So I tried on a pink sleeveless number with a draping neckline.  I was not thrilled with it on the hanger but I thought it was better on.  Again she did not like it.  So, I tried on a blue dress with a gauzy cover up.  It looked awesome!  I should mention that she got me some black patent leather pumps with a 4" heel.  So, I go out with the blue dress and she loves the way it drapes on me!  She notes that it does a nice job of hiding my belly and shows of my lovely legs!  So, then I try on a long sequin accented dress with a jacket.  She absolutely hates it on me.  So, I decide that the other blue dress is the one!  And it was a size 10.  When I lose the additional 10 pounds I'll be getting into an 8!  I can't wait. 

I wore the suit back home.  I had not eatten all day so I stopped at a quick stop for a snack.  The guy at the counter gave me a funny look but, who cares?  I am slowly getting used to people noticing and giving me looks.  I sat in the mall for ten minutes waiting for Macys to open.  There was  a lady right next to me.  If she noticed or cared she did not indicate it.  I am sure that others noticed me but it was just ambiguous enough that many may have just brushed it off.  Not like the other day with the skirt.  Those people KNEW.  Oh well, once a sissy...

So far I have not had anyone say anything.  I am not sure how I will handle it when it happens.  Of course, what they say may involve an invitation to suck their cock.  Even more not sure how I'd react!  The next stage may be very telling.  The ring and necklace will put it out there even if I am in relatively male clothing.  I am planning on going to a bar with a female bar tender and wearing the ring, at least.  I can not imagine that there won't be some discussion.  How will it go?  Hehe.  I'm such a sissy.

I have been busy this week!  First, I gave up on Jennifer with respect to the makeup lessons.  If she calls, I will do one but in the mean time I have found a salon that will do it and have scheduled an appointment for Thursday, the 9th at 4.  Now I am thinking about what to wear!  I have my fortnightly manicure tomorrow.  I am not sure what to wear to that either. I am tempted to just see if doing the eyebrow wax last time will give Candace enough of a hint as to bring it into the open...we'll see.  I made contact with Carolina this week too, regarding the suit.  I could do the long version but the short version is that I am picking it up at 10:00 on Friday.  And trying on dresses for a wedding in June.  Oh my.  I have been searching dresses at Macy's to find something that will work well for me.  I hope she is upfront about how each one works.  Finally, I stopped by the jewelry store to give Jessa the information on the 20" pearl necklaces.  She is not sure whether she can get them in to the store but she will try.  In any case, I know that I can order one and it probably does not matter whether they are .5 or .6 cm pearls.  After we took care of that, I suggested that we should look for something else, as I have no jewelry.  I was thinking about either a bracelet or a ring.  I was pretty sure that rings would not fit and would have to be sized while an 8" bracelet could work.  We looked at a few items, some very expensive, and she started to suggest earrings again.  Wow.  I so want to pierce my ears! But we settled on a sterling silver bracelet with diamond chips set in.  Very pretty.  I wore it out of the store.  And when I bought some dog food.  And at the quick stop to by beer.  What a sissy, eh? 

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So, I have described some of my adventures in the world of girls.  I would love to get some feedback from my audience.  Thanks in advance!  Diane.

Jewelry

So, I have started to think about accessorizing.  #1-a pearl necklace.  With that in mind, I went to Zales at the mall today.  I walked in, there was a couple and two sales clerks.  One of the clerks welcomed me and I quickly found the pearl counter.  I looked over the necklaces and she wandered over to inquire whether she could assist me.  I replied that I was looking for a pearl necklace.  She then asked about who it was for.  Moment of truth!  I looked at her and confessed that it was for me.  Wow.  Big hurdle.  She then asked what I was wearing it with.  Wow.  I replied a white dress.  This blatant admission is becoming frequent lately.  She asked what the dress style was.  I replied strapless.  Totally in the open...no hesitation.  She took it from there.  She showed me a 16" necklace that she felt was a choker.  I guess it would choke my 15 1/2" neck!  She then suggested the 18".  She asked whether I would try it on or whether she should do it for me.  Well, I knew that my neck was much bigger than hers but she had not come to that realization yet.  I said that I'd try it on.  The mirror was right next to where the couple was shopping.  She appeared to be sensitive to this issue, offering to move the mirror.  I said that it was fine where it was.  She then asked whether I knew how the clasp worked. I said yes, but that she should probably do it.  So, She came around the counter and put it on me.  I do not know if the couple was paying attention or not.  It probably fit similar to how the 16" would fit on her.  So, she understood the issue, at least.  She had a very nice 22" that she then tried on me.  I think it was just a bit too long, hanging down too far.  And she had no 20" necklaces.  Damn.  But, I learned a bit and she offered to bring in any necklace that I found on the Zales website.  So, I have located a couple of fresh water cultured pearl necklaces at 20".  I think I'll stop by with the information for her tomorrow as her card did not have an e-mail address.  We chatted about pearl earrings for a bit too.  She asked if I ever considered having them pierced, and whether I had anything else pierced.  She is pretty comfortable with me, I'd guess.  I replied that I'd love to have my ears pierced but that it was a huge commitment to coming out of the closet. 

So, now I have made contact with 1) a makeup sales lady, 2) a Macy's personal shopper, 3) Jennifer, the makeup tutor, 4) the two nice ladies at David's and 5) the Zales lady.  Amazing that none of them appear to be anything but supportive of a guy buying girl stuff for himself.  I am choosing to believe that they are in fact OK with this and not just trying to get a sale.  Candace, on the other hand, has done my nails 5-6 times and my eyebrows once. I have not told her, though telling her "give them a little shape, but not too fem" might have revealed the truth.  She has not indicated that she knows.  I am not sure how I want to play that.  I could come out blatantly or slowly....I am thinking maybe perfume at the next manicure.  We'll see. 

After I left Zales, I stopped by the Bon Ton Estee Lauder counter to see if the "gift bags" were in.  I spotted Marcy at the Clinique counter and walked right up to get her attention.  She asked how she could help me and I reminded her of the gift bag.  So, I got the new eyeshadow pallet along with a new lipstick, a small eyeshadow sampler, more night serum, daywear moisturizer and a makeup bag.  I soooo needed the makeup bag.  And a perfume!  "pleasures" by Estee Lauder.  Another first.  I tried it on in the car.  I love it.  Not as much as Chanel 5 but enough to make it my signature fragrance, for now at least. 

Back to the accessorizing, I am not sure what else I'll need.  Maybe a bracelet.  Probably a blusher.  I am having so much fun!

Wedding Dresses

I went to the appointment at David's Bridal today.  Wow.  I was all screwed up with respect to where to get dressed.  So, I did it at the parking lot of a nature preserve.  No one around, as far as I know.  So, I had my pantyhose on already and jumped out of the car and opened the trunk, where the clothes were.  Now, what to wear? I finally decided on the gray pants and white t shirt.  With the white lacy camisole under.  I am not sure if you could see it or not but I felt very girly, at least.  I chose the black flats too. Then, I tried makeup.  I say tried because my hand was shaking so badly and I was running out of time that I gave up.  Cleaned it off and put on a little mascara.  Obvious, but not over the top.  Then, to the appointment.  I picked Tuesday morning figuring that no one would be there.  Wrong.  I arrived as a lady and her boyfriend went in.  Damn.  So much for just me and the ladies.  I held my breath and went in, hoping that the store was big enough that everyone would be spread out.  Wrong again.  There was a reception desk, with a line.  I stood there very nervous as others were helped, not catching any of their glances.  I know there were some WTF looks.  Oh well.  I survived and was asked to sit down to do the normal bride paperwork.  How may bridesmaids, etc.  Oh well, I have none.  Wouldn't that be fun though...4-5 sweet little maids.  Not to be, I think.

So, I am given a tour of the shop and we start picking out dresses.  They have downloaded my wish list so they have an idea of what I am looking for.  Now it is going smoothly.  Then, to the changing area.  Damn...the dressing rooms are tiny and have no mirrors....the only mirrors are in a common area.  And there are brides and friends there.  So, I try on the first dress...the cute tea length gown by Oleg Casinni that I love so much.  And...a knock on the door...I have to come out to look at it!  With 8-10 ladies watching.  OMG.  Can you say "red"?  But, they were very nice and complimented me and that is how it went.  My basic concept was to keep it simple.  No train.  No ballgowns.  But the nice lady working with me threw in a couple with trains.  Sweet.  I really like one of them.  Totally girly, but not easy to deal with, as I am still pondering the idea of losing my virginity in a wedding dress.  But standing at the mirror in this long gown I really felt nice.  I had to pick up the front edge of the gown to walk.  It was a good thing that I watched  video on walking in a wedding gown!  So, I come out of the booth,  gown slightly raised, walking fine on the 2" heels.  None of the women said anything but I hope that they noticed how well I carried myself.  Then, standing at the mirror, my assistant fluffs my train for me!  Sweet!  So totally like  bridesmaid.  So, after sorting through around ten dresses, the Casini keeps coming to the top of the list.  It is so cute.  Everyone agrees that this is the one.  Then, they come over with the blusher.  I had originally planned to wear a wig but after Sunday's difficult time with it, I decided against it, figuring on getting a new one that works better and can be styled with an up-do.  But they insisted that I try on the blusher... with no hair.  It obviously looked silly but I went along with it.  Then, I got dressed and checked out, setting up an appointment in July to try on the actual gown, which will be a size larger, and get it fitted.  I cannot wait!  I did not buy the shoes but I am now regretting that decision.  The gown is an ivory and I do not have a sample of the material to work with.  It may be easier to have them dye those shoes as they know the color.  The shoes were fine, from my perspective...though not buying them implied that I would have to go shopping for them...another girly activity.  But still,  with a lack of real shoe stores here I think it may be very difficult.  In any case, I left the store, dressed fem with my purse over my shoulder.  So fem!  I could get used to this.